fuck it, let's go

a minute memo to myself

I know that every hour things change. Fuck, every minute things change. 

So what’s the point in worrying about anything anyways?

If the future is uncertain regardless of the choices i make, then why not choose differently? 

Because if the choice that I am accustomed to making is one that gives me a false sense of comfort, I’m choosing a certain pain over uncertain happiness. 

If pain is part of life no matter what I do, then why choose a pain that keeps me from living it? 

Keeps me afraid to live it? 

..

I have no fucking idea. But… 

Imma give it my best shot.